“Good art always comes from psychic pain or hunger. People can be succesful but they still have the pain from the past and a lot of times they can channel that into songs that are combined with good times that have happened to them and then they even have a longer career, but most art comes from people that are tortured, in themselves, and you’re not gonna see that as much now because the development of drugs such as the SSRIs, Paxel and Zoloft and all of those drugs from the, you know, the medications that even out people, and the use Ritalin and other drugs, Adderall and those drugs in younger children, evens them out and doesn’t allow behaviour that superstars exhibited in their growing up, such as probably Steven Tyler and Steve Perry and other great frontmen, I’m sure, all the great frontmen and even frontwomen, I’m sure, Ann Wilson and whatever, I’m sure that these people were outcasts to some extent and definitely were not properly behaved in school because their brains don’t function like anybody else’s, and normalizing these kids now is one of the many reasons there’s gonna be a lot less music that’s great. And nobody… Everyone’s afraid to say that but it’s totally true.”
“They (Aerosmith) were a great band which is why I wanted to sign them. I had seen them. I didn’t really understand what a great problem the drugs were, and when Tim Collins finally decided that he had to do something about it, and he did do something about it in the fall of 1986 and I decided I was gonna try one more time to see what I could get outta them, and I’ll never forget, going to rehearsal; it’s a blizzard with lightning in Boston, January 1987, they had gotten cleaned up, and I go in their rehearsal room, and there’s an entire wall that’s maybe 30 feet high and 40 feet wide, of bras and panties, and that’s what, y’know, this is in their rehearsal room, and I’m thinking, “what am I doing”? Like, I really appreciate bras and panties, but it’s like I, I’m not really sure that, y’know, because they played new songs which I didn’t think were good enough, so I finally say to Steven Tyler, in front of the wall of bras and panties, that I really feel that he should try to work with Desmond Child who had just done Slippery When Wet, try their focus on some of the ideas, like “Dude Looks Like A Lady”, which I heard the idea of, but not being a songwriter or musician, I couldn’t straighten it out. So anyway, they listened to me and Tim Collins got Steven and Joe to meet with Desmond, Jim Vallance and a few other people and that’s how it started to take shape then I convinced them to go to Vancouver to work with Bruce Fairbairn, who I had to convince to work with Aerosmith, because he wasn’t very convinced that that was going to be a good use of his time.“
Josh Silver: “Amo ‘Slow, Deep and Hard’, es uno de mis discos favoritos de Type O. Creo que, líricamente, Peter estaba en llamas y eso me encanta. Es pura agresión. La producción es una mierda y es apropiada para el material. Funcionó en su conjunto, el sonido y el material son como un matrimonio. Era diarrea sónica y el nacimiento de una identidad.”
Siempre me gustó esa declaración: “No soy mala, solo me han dibujado así”. Pobre Jessica Rabbit, incapaz de escapar de su imagen. Tras pasar un par de buenos meses con pequeños, diversos y hasta el momento inofensivos problemillas de salud, y de nuevo de frente con mi querida esclerosis múltiple, la frase me viene de perlas y tengo ganas de utilizarla.
“No estoy asustada, es que me han dibujado así”.
“No estoy estresada, es que me han dibujado así”.
“No soy una hipocondríaca, es que me han dibujado así”.
“No es que no pueda explicar lo que me está pasando, es que me han dibujado así”.
“No es que sea perezosa, es que me han dibujado así”.
“No es que sea una quejica, es que me han dibujado así”.
“No es que quiera llamar la atención, es que me han dibujado así”.
Más de 15 años después del diagnóstico, de pronto me he visto de nuevo enfrentando cosas, situaciones, sentimientos que pensé que ya había superado. Las he llevado con más garbo, son años de experiencia, pero aun así han revuelto mi mundito. Me veo de nuevo evaluando modos de vida y relaciones personales, levando anclas de nuevo, saliendo al mar con rumbo desconocido y dejando atrás en el muelle todo aquello y a aquellos que no me van a acompañar. Les digo adiós con la manita.
Me ha cogido por sorpresa y aún sigo en aguas revueltas. Así que quizás me desahogue un poco por aquí estos días.
A day like this, 19 years ago, I saw Type O Negative live for the first and only time. Of course it was a Saturday, not a fucking Tuesday. I dread Tuesdays. Anyways. I was in Holland and we were going to the Dynamo festival. I was completely clueless about the band. Sure, I had seen them around on TV and magazines but I always thought they were just a bunch of gloomy weirdos. My cluelessness only goes to prove the authenticity of my experience. There was a legion of people there eagerly waiting to see them. And as soon as they started to prep the stage and dropped the lights, the legion became one body, one soul, one spirit, and it was fixed on that stage, with that band. They took me along with them even before I knew what was going on. It was impossible to be anywhere else but there with them. It was intense. And I was completely sober, mind you.
I miss them so much.
Hoy se cumplen 6 años de la muerte de Peter Steele. Como ya he escrito bastante sobre él y superando todo pudor, esta vez comparto un audio con un pequeño resumen de su carrera que grabé para el podcast de Metal And Rock.